lozbabie

So I had massive plans for my birthday weekend. My flatmate was going to take my our Saturday night. Except, that she has a new 'boyfriend' (of all of two weeks, and I give it two more months) and she HAS to meet his family tonight. The night before my 25th, when she promised to take me out. So I find this out last night.

I arrange with another friend (who might have some additional benefits) that he'll come over to my place tonight and keep me company watching DVDs. Except that he worked today and is 'tired' and feels he can't drive over. So the night before my 25th birthday two so called friends have bailed on me and left me alone at home, being all emo and crying at my computer screen. I hate my life.

Worst part? Both of them know that I have few friends over here. Flatmate 'at least' gave me a day's notice. FWB? Told me at 5.30 tonight. Stupid fucking asshole that he is. No time to contact the one other friend I have in Perth and beg a night out off her.

Am I that horrible a person that people have no problem doing this to me?

So I didn't post once a week, but who cares? I'll try to be more updating, but I don't want to be tied down.

So cars. Stupid, stupid things. I'll have spent over $1600 to get my cars over the pits here in WA and that's not even paying for the pits OR the rego costs! Thankfully they're much cheaper and I will have a better running car when its all done (plus vanity plates, sweet! They come in hot pink too!) but still! Thank God for credit cards.

Of course my computer decided to shit itself last week as well, so in addition to all the car costs, I had to pay for a new box for my computer. Damn money.

How sad is it about Heath Ledger? Only 28, that's only three years older than me! My thoughts go out to his poor family (imagine having to hear a family member died on the radio?) and especilly his poor little girl.

I've never been a diary person. I remember Year 9 English where we had journal once a week for 45 minutes. I think in six months I wrote one page (and read every other lesson, so I did too learn Mr Smith!) I'm just not that expressive. I WILL keep up my resolution though if it kills me!

So had a decent time last night. Got horribly drunk, met some nice people. It was good.

Decided I was going to start the new year nice and early. Of course that didn't happen (this is me you're talking about!) and woke up at 2pm. Oh well, I always get up early for work.

I've already posted my '08 resolutions (and by posting this I've kept up one of them!) but here's how I want my 2008 to go.

I want to be happy and fufilled at work (so far so good). I want to get myself out of debt but still be able to live in a decent way. I want to meet lots of new people and get myself a group of friends in Perth. I want to enjoy softball (and hopefully win a game!) and have fun with fitness. I want to have lost at least 30kg by the end of the year. (which would take me down to 90kg) I want to be in my own apartment (even if it is paying more, I need my own place. Share housing sucks) by July.

Most of all I want to be HAPPY! Yay for 2008 and all the promise it brings!

Deciding to move across the country is so much easier when you're actully over there. Now I'm home and have to go back its much, much harder! I cried when I left my aunties yesterday, cried when I left my grandparents today and will cry when my parents leave me at the airport. Growing up oficially sucks!

So looking at last years resolutions (and how sad that was my last post!) I managed to get half done.

I moved out of home (and moved to Perth so yay me! Don't do things be halves) and I got more organised (by throwing everything out)

So my NYR are...

1) Get fit and healthy.
2) Have a buffer of $1000 in my account.
3) Get rid of my debt.
4) Get friends in Perth.
5) Post on this once a week.

I can start working on them when I get home (am in Sydney for Xmas) and have accses to more things.

The last in a line of posts. What is with me today?

Anyways, I have decided to post my New Year's Resolutions. I'm still going to carry them around in my wallet, but I want them online too.

1. This year is the year I will FINALLY get fit and healthy.

2. Have savings of at least $5,000 at the end of the year.

3. Become better orgainsed.

4. Move out of home.

The first three are variants of last years's, which each had various ammounts of success (1. no sucess, 2. was $10 grand and did that, but most of it went on my trip and 3. I was oragnised till April!) and 4 is happening once I get back from Africa in March. I WILL achieve them all this year.

This little rant came up when discussing Saddam's hanging with a friend. Which led straight to Mr. Bush and Mr. Howard. I'm quite proud of my eloquence so I'm putting it here for all to see. I'm so modest.

Personally, the only thing I wish for my country is that Howard goes down as our worst PM. This country is not the one I grew up in and I put the blame squarely at Mr. Howard's feet for that. We're a racist, redneck, xenophobic country who don't like helping people, but are happy to go into senseless wars. I've said this before, but I'm no longer proud to call myself Australia and I HATE John Howard and his government for taking that away from me.

So http://www.news.com.au/sundaytelegraph/story/0,22049,20992006-5001021,00.html this article is about how Australia's PM thinks that "Feminism is Dead" Can the man show any more ignorant about feminism if he tried?

Feminism is about CHOICE. Women choosing to have children earlier and then choosing to stay at home shows that feminism is alive and kicking. Feminism is not about being in the workplace beating all the men. It’s about being equal with the men and making choices in your life, based on having the same options men do.

I volunteered to work Xmas Day ($60 an hour! I'm SO THERE!) and had a blast. Took my PS2 in and played Buzz all day.

Then came family time. Got to meet uncle's new Thai bride. It started off as a marriage of convience but ended up "as love" Don't know why, he's an asshole and she seems lovely. Kept trying to clean up after us though.

My lovely grandparents left my parents, uncle + wife alone for an hour to take the presents to my young cousins (who have chicken pox poor dears) Now I would have understood if they were going to see them (I was going to go until I found out the next bit), but they DIDN'T GO INSIDE! Neither have had chicken pox, so they knocked on the door, left the presents and left! Couldn't they have done that today?

We then discover two uncles have decided 'between themselves' that they're no longer buying presents for niece's kids. Not niece herself (the two stopped buying for us years ago) but her KIDS. Who are two and a half and one. Charming. Especilly since they told NO-ONE! My cousin discovered this on Xmas Day.

My cousins (accidently) showed my up a bit too. One cousin does lovely pottery and gave some mugs to my grandparents, while other cousin gave them something else. I (only three adult cousin's in country) got them nothing! This will be so used against me, I can feel it. They hadn't communicated, and it wasn't till they brought theirs out that they realised no-one had warned me. If I'd known I'd have gotten them something (I still live at home so piggyback off my parents)

Worst thing is, next year I was always planning on buying them presents (moving out) now it will look like I did it because of this!

What is it about some guys that assume because I'm fat that I'm desperate to sleep with them? I love the sex, but if you're a wanker I'm not intrested.

Also, talking for TWENTY minutes about what a huge cock you have and how you please all women is not a turn-on! If you need to tell people how big your cock is, ten bucks that its a pindick.

I then got conned into driving this asshole home and at his house(when he would not get out of my fucking car!) turns and said "Now Brooke told me that you wanted to hook up, but I have to tell you I'm superficial" (THANKS BROOKE!) Mate, I've spent the entire night putting shit on you, what makes you think I'm in any way intrested in hooking up with you? I think he got put off when I assured him that no, actully I was not intrested whatsoever.

I HATE WANKERS!

The new title for the last (*sob*) Harry Potter book has been announced. Which hopefully means that we'll soon get a release date. So looking forward to reading it.

If Hermione dies, I'll bawl my eyes out though. Maybe even more than when Dumbeldore died (then again I was screaming YOU FUCKER at Snape so I wasn't crying that much) *sniff* Don't leave me Harry Poooooooooteeeeeeer!

Is it just me, but when you're single and in your mid 20s, Christmas isn't the same? Its one week till Christmas and there's none of the same excitement. Even the fact that I spent the day with my little cousins, who are beside themselves, didn't change my mood.

Growing up sucks sometimes.

I am so going to try to update this at least once a week. I've had it for yonks but am too damn lazy to update it. See, the Snarkfest drama DID have good things come out of it!

Basics, I'm 23, female and live in Sydney Australia. Am currently in a filthy mood as some friends have invited me into the city (hour drive) but can't find a place in their car, and expect me to train it in by myself and then catch the looser cruiesr home at four in the morning. Thanks girls! Still deciding whether to go.

I really need to use this LJ thingy more.

I'm looking at mainly using this as my weight loss blog at first, but knowing me I won't update it, or just post random stuff.

I've been 'dieting' for a year. I've lost 10kg (even though in total I lost about 12kg) but I've been battling the 'Big Black Dog', aka Depression for about three. When I was nineteen (I'm 22 now) I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome, shortened to PCOS for easier writing. That sent me into a two year spiral of DOOOOM. I've fucked uni up, but I'm having a year break from that and going back next year to finish my degree. I WILL get it.

I've done SureSlim for a year and like I said, lost just over 12kg on that. I've put a bit back on, but am back on the slide again. I restarted my weight loss in January, and in the first week I've lost 1.5kg. I've been doing this by watching what I eat, eating my three main meals of the day (even though I do have snacks if I get insanely hungry) I've been drinking two to three bottles of water a day, and I've also been going to the gym every weekday for an hour before work.

I had a real up and down week last week, when I couldn't get out of bed on Tuesday and Wednesday. I didn't get back to the gym till the Friday either. All I can do is just get back on the saddle. I've been eating fairly well over the weekend (even though I did have a sundae at dinner on Sat with friends, and then the fattiest cocktail that ever exisisted) but after sleeping most of Sunday away, I'm hoping that it will work out.

I have two goals for my changes. The big one, obviously, is to get to a healthy weight and fitness. The other one is to get fit for softball. Apparently I'm foccusing on pitching this year (why does my manager not seem to realise how much I truly love first base?) but I'm going to have a chat with my coach and make him realise that while I might focus on pitching, I still want to be considered the top first base in the team. That's my first love.